my hush-hush crush

When I was little, I was that girl who would chase the boys around the playground and threaten to kiss them. When I caught them, I’d say, “Smooch or smack?” meaning I would either kiss them or slap them. Then I’d let them go without doing either, because I was really only in it for the chase.

I wish I had that same gumption when it comes to boys nowadays. Here’s the problem: I have this crush on a friend of mine. And not just a baby one. I have a HUGE crush on this guy. But I don’t want to pursue him. Now that I’m older, I’m afraid of the chase.

I’ve had plenty of opportunities to flirt with him, but I don’t do it. I guess I just don’t want to make things weird. I don’t want to put myself out there. Plus, I just really enjoy having a secret crush to daydream about.

But I’m getting sick of just thinking about dating him, and I’m beginning to think maybe I should just go for it.

What should I do, CG!’s? Should I let him know how I feel and risk making it awkward every time we hang out from now on? If so, how do I go about telling him?

I wish I could just chase him around the playground and be done with it. Those were the days.

Later.
Bethany Poller
CG! Editorial Intern