new great guy

So, I finally met a great guy. He is emotionally available, doesn't play games, extremely cute, plays guitar and saxophone, and is an amazing chef (by profession!). On our first date he completely wined and dined me by cooking me a four-course meal that was the equivalent of eating at a five star NY restaurant(see photo of first course-saffron potatoe soup!) Can you believe that I actually met him in a bar in my neighborhood? Something I swore would never happen. I did meet him through an acquaintance who I had run into so I felt "safe" hanging out with him till last call. I guess I have to agree with the statement that you really do find it when you least expect it. I was just (finally) getting over my recent ex (Old J) who was quite the opposite of new J- did I mention that I only date guys who start with the letter J? It's VERY strange- First kiss- Jeff, first love- Jamaal, first long term relationship-Jon, and then there is Josh, and another Jeff, and Justyn, and another Jeff. You get the point.

Anyway, back to New J. He really is incredible, and I have to say that this is the first time in my entire life that I am being treated the way I deserve to be. I have finally met a man who is kind, and truly sees everything that is great about me, and he is so generous in both heart and mind. Also, he is always available which is pretty strange for me since I am not used to being the one who is more "unavailable". I am sure things will change dramatically once he starts working again, especially since chefs work 13 hours a day, 6 days a week.

So, what is the problem? You might be asking? The only problem that I have found is this uneasy feeling since no man has been this good to me. I keep wondering when it's all going to fall apart. And, I will tell you the best lesson I have learned from this thus far-all those guys in the past who I thought were going to "come around", all those guys who were just "confused"- guess what? Those guys were just not that into me, or they just were not interested in a serious relationship- and probably never will be. When he truly likes you, he will do anything to get you, and he will want to be available to you because he wants to make you happy since you do the same for him. I can not believe how much time I spent ignoring the true signs that some underserving guy was never really going to come around, and why would I have wanted him to anyway? I spent so many hours ignoring myself and my own needs just to make him happy. And, I knew all along that it would take closing one door for another to swing wide open...

love & Peace, Jess